UNTIL HE BRINGS ME HOME

You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Psalm 73:24-26

fraught with lots of thoughts

when your mind is filled with philosophical ponderings and questions about this life we live—ponderings and questions that are beginning to become the center of your obsession

the answers you find, every so often, open dozens of doors that you hadn’t seen before and behind each is yet another unanswered question, yet another spot of grass to chew on, another thought to mull over, another life lesson to learn, another application to commit to, another thing to improve, another thing to watch out for

distracted by things to do, the latest imagination, the most recent query, the nagging and the nagging of this hyperactive mind that won’t shut off

always on the verge of an incredible breakthrough, yet always in a downward spin; deep breath and cleared mind, only to have it cluttered up again

the center of your obsession; so much so, it is hard to explain everything that’s been on your mind when people ask, hard to be interested in the affairs of others, hard to think about the things that everyone else is thinking about

no one seems to understand—no one seems to be on the same plane, even in the same dimension—no one seems to know what you’re thinking (not even this writer)—and if only, if only, if only.

Perhaps we still believe we can reason the world into existence; perhaps we are intent on finding the answers this way; perhaps we think that we will eventually pull ourselves out of these pits of confusion by the sheer force and clarity of our thought and research

because, after all, we are still arrogant people.

I plead with you to understand, for the sake of your joy: there is a difference between wrestling in our minds for the sake of knowing, believing, and applying what has been established as truth

and trying to establish what the truth is, via our own intellect.

We need answers, or we will not rest. This is good; keep asking. But know that the answers will come from one thing, and one thing only: the word of God. If we do not return to it, we will continue to chase our tails and peace will be as evasive as ever; there is no science more simultaneously productive and therapeutic than the science of God. And what we believe about him—even if it is that he does not exist—will determine the course of our lives.

The answer is not necessarily to think less. It is to think correctly. We need grace for this; we need prayer for this; we need humility for this; we need the Word for this.

And we also thank God constantly for this, that when you received the word of God, which you heard from us, you accepted it not as the word of men but as what it really is, the word of God, which is at work in you believers. -1 Thessalonians 2:13

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